Yes that does say alot for these forums! Wow GFK, you really opened up there. I hope sharing with us makes you feel better but like someone already mentioned you need to get out of isolation, that includes behind the puter screen and out into the real world. It's hard too see things when your in the moment and feeling the way you do. I think in time you'll be better for it though. We all go through a time in our lives where were trying to figure out who we are, where we've been and where we want to go.... your not alone.
jules